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A historical adventure novel, 1891

Kill Your Dreams A journey from the rice fields of China to the summit of Mount Kailash

He worked from sunrise to sunset, and still felt his life slipping away while he stood still. Then a master handed him a sealed wooden box, an impossible mission, and three words that changed everything. If you've ever felt stuck in the same place, this journey was written for you.

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Kill Your Dreams isn't for everyone. It's for readers who want a story that stays with them.

  • You love adventure stories set in faraway culturesMountain monasteries, river cities, nomad camps and a maharaja's palace, across China, Nepal, India and Tibet.
  • You learn more from a great story than from a list of tipsThere are no bullet points or formulas here. The wisdom lives inside the journey.
  • You work hard, yet still feel stuckYou keep dreaming about a different life, and the gap between the dream and your days keeps getting wider.
  • You're ready for an uncomfortable, freeing truthEven if it starts by contradicting everything you've been told about chasing your dreams.

An impossible mission on the roof of the world

China, 1891. A young peasant works the family rice paddies from dawn to dusk and watches his dreams drift further away every year. Tired of waiting for a different life, he climbs sacred Mount Emei in search of a master who can give him answers.

Instead of answers, he receives a mission. He must carry a small wooden box, the Jade Box, to the summit of Mount Kailash in Tibet. He cannot open it, lose it, sell it, or let anyone take it from him. And before he leaves, the master speaks three words that defy everything he thought he knew.

"Kill thy dreams."

So begins a journey of thousands of miles through China, Nepal, India and Tibet. With Arnakabe, a loyal and stubborn mule, at his side, the apprentice will face wolves, storms, hunger, the temptation of gold and, above all, his own shadow. Along the way he meets monks, elders, merchants, nomads, and Xiaodan, a red-haired young woman who changes the course of his heart.

At every stage he discovers one of the Eight Noble Paths of the Dragon's Crossing, an ancient philosophy that transforms anyone who dares to walk it. But only at the top of the world will he understand what those three words truly mean.

The apprentice with the Jade Box and his mule Arnakabe at the start of the road to Mount Kailash

Kill thy dreams.

The master to his apprentice, on the first night at Mount Emei

Why would anyone kill their own dreams? It isn't about giving up. It's the exact opposite.

“Dreams are mist; objectives are mountains. The dream rests; the objective walks.” From Kill Your Dreams

Those who live on dreams alone stay put, waiting. Those who turn them into a path start walking. Understanding that is one thing. Living it, across rivers, mountains, hunger and cold, is another. That's the journey the apprentice takes, and the one you'll take with him.

Follow the journey, stop by stop

Every place on the road teaches the apprentice something he couldn't learn at home.

  1. The apprentice on top of Mount Emei at sunset
    1Mount Emei, ChinaTired of dreaming, he goes in search of a master.
  2. The apprentice and the master talking under the Sacred Fig Tree at night
    2The Sacred Fig TreeA mission, and three words.
  3. The apprentice holding the Jade Box on the road
    3The Jade BoxA box he can't open, lose or sell.
  4. Nomads dancing among the bamboo while the apprentice watches
    4The bamboo villageMusic, dancing, and his first meeting with Xiaodan.
  5. The apprentice on a rock at night, surrounded by wolves
    5Into the wildAlone, under the moon, surrounded by wolves.
  6. The apprentice playing harmonica beside Xiaodan
    6The Mingfeng mountainsXiaodan teaches him to play the harmonica.
  7. The apprentice sitting by the Ganges in Varanasi among oil lamps
    7Varanasi, IndiaHunger, silence and the sacred river.
  8. The apprentice peeking into a room full of gold in the maharaja's palace
    8The maharaja's palaceThe greatest temptation of the journey.
  9. In the storm, the apprentice holds his fallen mule Arnakabe as torches approach
    9The stormHe refuses to leave Arnakabe behind.
  10. Climbing the frozen slope toward Mount Kailash
    10Mount Kailash, TibetThe climb where everything is revealed.

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An adventure that travels through the soul

No formulas, no lectures. Just a journey full of losses, encounters and choices, and everything it stirs in the reader.

A real journey, with real falls

Rivers, fire, hunger and cold. The apprentice fails, loses, starts over and keeps going. You feel every step with him.

The darkest night before the summit

At the highest point of the journey he must choose between the abyss and the light. One of the most intense passages in the book, and one readers carry long after the last page.

Faith, spirituality and self-discovery

Masters, monks, sacred temples and the Eight Noble Paths are part of the road. The spirituality never comes as a sermon. It's lived by the character, step by step.

Love and friendship along the way

Xiaodan, the nomad with the harmonica. Arnakabe, the mule who becomes family. Monks, merchants and elders. Every encounter leaves a mark on the apprentice, and on you.

A book to read, reflect on and reread. Each time, it speaks to the season of life you're in. Along the way it explores:

  • Choices
  • Courage
  • Purpose
  • Wisdom
  • Planning
  • Love
  • Discipline
  • Patience
  • Determination
  • Resilience
  • Health
  • Desire

Read the moment the journey begins

A mysterious box. A promise. Three words that can change a life.

The apprentice took in those words as he looked at the Jade Box.

— Do we have an agreement? — asked the master, and there was in his voice the serenity of one who contemplates destiny.

— Yes, master. We have an agreement.

— Do we have a promise?

— Yes, master. We have a promise.

The master smiled, satisfied.

— The Jade Box is the symbol of our commitment. Protect it as thou wouldst protect thyself: do not open it, do not lose it, do not sell it, do not allow it to be taken from thee.

The apprentice bowed, holding the Jade Box with reverence.

— I will, master.

— Define thy objective, live for it and, if need be, die for it. And remember: whenever thou art lost, call for me. I will be with thee, wherever thy steps may take thee.

The wind changed direction when the master uttered something that sounded like an ancient seal, heavy and mysterious:

— Arnakabe.

A shiver ran through the apprentice's body.

— Arnakabe?

— Kill thy dreams — the master repeated, his voice grave.

He put on his straw hat, stood up and went down the trail lit by the moonlight. The Jade Box pulsed in his calloused hands. It was no longer fear he felt, but determination — a silent certainty that his life had already changed.

“Soon I will be in the Land of Gold,” he thought. “And, for the first time, it won't be just a dream.”

From Kill Your Dreams by Gustavo Lorenzoni

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What readers are saying

4.9 / 5 from 1,000+ reviews of the original Portuguese edition
★★★★★

I started out thinking it was just another adventure book, but at every stop on the journey I saw myself in the apprentice. I finished it seeing my own dreams in a completely different way.

Mariana F., Brazil
★★★★★

The phrase "kill your dreams" bothered me so much that I couldn't stop reading until I understood why. It teaches without ever feeling like it's teaching. The story carries the whole lesson.

Rodrigo C., Brazil
★★★★★

This is not a self-help book. It's a deep story that teaches, entertains and inspires at the same time. And Arnakabe became a character I never expected to love so much.

Juliana A., Brazil
★★★★★

At 68, I've read a lot, but few books have gripped me like this one. The apprentice's journey reminded me of choices I made when I was young and dreams I left behind without noticing. I recommended it to my three children.

Sebastião L., Brazil
★★★★★

I couldn't put it down, seriously. I started on a Saturday afternoon and only stopped when I reached the end.

Camila R., Brazil
★★★★★

The climb toward Mount Kailash is described in such rich detail that it feels like you're right there with the apprentice. One of the best books I read this year.

Eduardo V., Brazil

Reviews translated from Portuguese.

If you loved The Alchemist and Siddhartha

Kill Your Dreams belongs to the same family of books that follow one person on a journey that crosses the world on the outside and transforms them on the inside.

  • The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. Like Santiago, the apprentice leaves home in search of something he only understands at the end of the road. Here the journey crosses China, India and Tibet, and the question is different: what if your dream is the very thing holding you back?
  • Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse. The same spiritual search in the East, among masters, sacred rivers and renunciation, told as an adventure with wolves, storms and gold.
  • The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari and Way of the Peaceful Warrior. Wisdom that comes from a story and a teacher, not from a list of tips.
  • Jonathan Livingston Seagull and The Little Prince. A fable you can read in a weekend and reread at every stage of life.

If you're looking for novels about finding your purpose, spiritual journey books or master-and-apprentice stories that make you rethink your own path, start here.

Author Gustavo Lorenzoni

About the author

Gustavo Lorenzoni spent eight years writing Kill Your Dreams. A voracious reader with a passion for philosophy, history and world cultures, he immersed himself in late 19th-century China, India, Nepal and Tibet to bring the apprentice's journey to life.

There were moments when everything felt uncertain. The first person to read, hear and believe in this story was his wife, Juliana Cristina, and she was the one who wouldn't let him quit. Maybe that's why the book speaks so deeply about persistence: the author had to make his own crossing before the book was finished.

First published independently in Brazil as Mate Seus Sonhos, the novel found more than 100,000 readers through word of mouth. This is its first edition in English.

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Frequently asked questions

Is Kill Your Dreams a self-help book?
No. It's an adventure novel set across China, Nepal, India and Tibet in the late 19th century. The lessons come from the story itself, through challenges, setbacks and unexpected turns, not from lists or formulas.
Which books are similar to Kill Your Dreams?
If you enjoyed The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse, The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari or Jonathan Livingston Seagull, you'll feel at home: it's a novel of travel and self-discovery, with a master, an apprentice and an adventure that transforms the one who lives it.
Which Amazon store should I buy from?
The Kindle edition is sold in every Amazon store under the same title. Readers in the US buy on Amazon.com; in the UK and Ireland on Amazon.co.uk; in Canada on Amazon.ca; in Australia on Amazon.com.au; and in India on Amazon.in. The buttons on this page take you to the store for your country, and you can change it with the store picker.
Do I need a Kindle device to read it?
No. You can read it on any Kindle, or on your phone, tablet or computer with the free Kindle app for iOS, Android, Mac and PC.
Is it a true story?
It's a work of fiction set in real places and a real era, from sacred Mount Emei in China to Varanasi on the Ganges and Mount Kailash in Tibet.
Is this a translation?
Yes. The novel was first published in Brazil as Mate Seus Sonhos and has been carefully translated into English to keep the author's voice and the timeless tone of the master.
Do I need to know anything about Asian history or Buddhism?
Not at all. The story was written for any reader. Everything you need to know unfolds through the apprentice's eyes as he travels.

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